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This is the final piece (at least for now) of my series on the Nagorno-Karabakh conflict, where I share the post-war experience from the Armenian perspective.

The war has ended. After 40+ days of bitter fight against Azerbaijani-Turkish aggression we lost. Badly. The first thing you feel is emptiness. Then there is a relief that no lives will be lost anymore, then — an overwhelming sadness. Our guys are gone. We lost what we cherished so much. The collective sacrifice of about 30 years is gone. Many indigenous people of Artsakh have lost their homes. The very existence of our…


Here, I take a detour and try to explain what I understand under healthy patriotism and national identity. My perspective is from a small nation’s view and may not be applicable to other countries.

I have never called myself a patriot. My discomfort with the label does not come from the basic idea but with the ways it is expressed. I don’t like pathetic displays of emotion, over-generalizations and over- simplifications. But I do love my country, albeit my love has a more mundane basis. I love the view of the mountains back home, the “mischievous” mountain rivers, the evening…


This is the fourth part of my series on Nagorno-Karabakh conflict, where I share my thoughts on why the negotiations have failed by discussing the realpolitik side of the issue.

I promised myself to stay strong until the end of this damn war. One of the few inevitable breakdowns was right after the 10+ hour meeting on 10/10/20 in Moscow, where the foreign ministers of Armenia and Azerbaijan were discussing the terms of a humanitarian ceasefire. They came up with four short points — dry and opaque: humanitarian ceasefire to collect the bodies, format of the negotiations unchanged, etc. It…


This is the third article in my series on the Nagorno-Karabakh conflict. Here, I try to explain why Armenia’s fear of another genocide is justified. Sorry that this article is a bit longer than usual. Here I do unambiguously take a side and if the language comes across as strong, remember that I am criticizing the governments and the ruling elite, not the people who live in these countries. Also, this has nothing to do with the religious differences or anything like that.

The map of modern Armenia looks like the portrait of a woman, with the lake Sevan as…


In the previous part of these series, I gave a short introduction to the Nagorno-Karabakh/Artsakh conflict and proposed that a crucial key to understand the Armenian perspective is to acknowledge the Armenian fear of genocide. Since you may not be familiar with the Armenian Genocide actually committed in the last century, I decided to talk about it first.

1915, Sarikamish. An Armenian soldier is strolling the streets when he suddenly meets a shy little boy with fearful eyes. To the question “What’s your name”, the child says nothing and makes the sign of the cross instead (a Christian gesture), expressing…


This is the first article of my series on the Nagorno-Karabakh conflict. Thank you for your interest!

One of my recurring nightmares is me hiking in the mountains and accidentally crossing the border to Azerbaijan. Then, my silly dream-ego struggles to come up with lies to hide my Armenian identity. In one version, I speak broken Persian, in another one I just pretend to be an Indian who grew up in Germany. Luckily, I always wake up before my lies are exposed.

On 27th September, I didn’t have a bad dream, I woke up to a bad reality. The first…


26/09/2020

The day started as a lazy Saturday filled with existential thoughts and attempts to digest the last book I read: “The Notes from the Underground” by Fyodor Dostoevsky. Human irrationality, the meaning of life, the inevitable failure of any utopia, the illusion of freedom and the bittersweet dark chocolate of Russian literature. At some point though, I felt the urge to do something productive to season my own existence with a pinch of meaning: one must imagine Sisyphus happy, right?

A good way out was to contemplate my plans of opening a small Airbnb business in my home town…

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